Summer Has Begun!

So many of you know this summer has been pretty rough on me.

I went to Canada in the beginning of May which was one of the most rewarding experiences EVER! I would totally do it again in a heart beat! But when I got back, one of my brothers friends and teammate from high school died. It hit hard. I couldnt believe it...its so hard to think that someone with so much promise and so much going for him... is gone. Now that is been over a month, I can realize that it was in God's plan for him, and he is watching over all of us and that has helped knowing that it was in the plan. I dont know what I would have done if something like that happened to my brothers or sisters...it would be difficult. I pray for his family everyday, that they have the strength to get through the day.

After that I went through a difficult time with my personal life. Someone I cared about alot basically told me it wasnt there for him anymore, nor would it ever be. That happened during my training for State Farm Day Camp, I felt so alone, but Brittany, Jenna, Steven and Kerry really helped me get through that. They are abosolutely amazing people. Im still attempting to talk to him to see if we could continue on as friends...but no response has been given back to me. so....I tried again tonight sending a "hey!" over aim...no response...oh well... Im just trying to push through.

My summer job is absolutely amazing. I cannot express that enough! I work at State Farm Day camp...and right when I thought " I have no friends in Bloomington anymore, this summer is going to be terrible" I met some of the coolest people in this town! I have had a blast hanging out with them all and to tell you the truth...its helped me move on from this whole "break up" I have been going through. When Im hanging out with my friends from work. its so fun and laid back I feel like I can be myself, dont have to prove myself to anyone, and can just forget about all that bad that has happened in the last month. This job is a true blessing and I take none of it for granted...

In family news! Missy is having a baby boy! 18 weeks until he is here!! Bradyn Lee!!! :) My mom and I have bought SO many clothes for him!! she has enough for the first nine months of his life!! I CANNOT WAIT! Another little baby!! Also, my cousin Mike is getting married in August on the 11th! so any one want to be my date?! I had one... but it fell through!!! Id love you forever if you go! :)

This weekend has been filled with laying around, working at The Childrens Place, shopping, and of course more laying around! Im going up north tomorrow to see my Grandma, and then coming back to see "Annie Get Your Gun" Tomorrow night at Miller Park! Im still REALLY bummed about not doing a show, but next summer!! :)

Anyways... Im off!!

FYI: IM 21 IN 21 DAYS! :) THREE WEEKS FROM NOW! :) ITS ON!!! :)