A Whole New Out Look

I havent written in this in so long! Its because time has flown by and I really didnt have a chance, but now Im waiting for my class to start so I figured I would write a bit now!

So From the last time I posted to the end of the summer. What can I say? If you werent there for it, its so hard to explain what it was like. Ill do my best. I really wish things could have gone differently this summer, especially at the beginning, Canada was great, but I went through so much, and I felt so alone. But I couldnt have been more wrong. There are so many people in my life now after this summer that make me feel whole. And its so cliche to say, but I dont care, its the truth; I found my friends for life. The last week of the summer, was so hard for me, everything we did, it was the last time. I thought "im never going to see these people, whom I have become so close to, until next summer." I felt so upset, I remember driving down Route 9, passing Buffalo Wild Wings, and crying. It was all moving away from me, so fast, I felt like I was drowning. completely being pulling under. I knew school wasnt going to be the same. But. I get half way there and my text messages start rolling in, from everyone in the rearview mirror, wondering if I made it there okay, how I was doing. It so so surreal, I was gone, but they were with me. Granted School has been such an emotional rollercoster but I go home way more than I used to because, I now have something to come home to, my best friends, and I couldnt have asked for a greater group of friends then the ones I have. If you are reading this, know that I love you all and I couldnt have made it through this summer without you, or this semester so far.

Like I said school has been an emotional rollercoster, but it has flown by...ITS MIDTERM!! Holy cow! I cant believe it, Im a fourth done with my senior year. I can hardly comprehend this. I got my practicum assignment, and Im working in a 5th grade classroom. my first experience with them...I was scared, I didnt know what to think or how to act, its an inclusion classroom, uhm....WHAT? Im so paranoid that my lessons wont be good enough...this is truely a test. But. I know I can do it after today. I got to sit and do readers theatre with some of them earlier today, and I got to know a couple of them. They are gonna be fun, out of control at times, but fun. Other than that Im teaching 3rd grade social studies once a week with a partner, and we teach four students about an Illinois Hero, and ours is Bonnie Blair, the Olympic speed skater, and ITS A BLAST! 3rd grade...what an age. Its so much fun, stressful but fun! I wish I could be in the classroom all the time rather than being in my classes...which I have been having issues with all semester..buts its okay. because...Im getting all A's at midterm...first time ever... Im shocked! Im working really hard, and it helps me from missing home a lot.

My sister is going to have her baby on Tuesday next week, I cant wait to see my new nephew! Its going to be another miracle.

Other than that the only thing I have left to say is, I found God, more than I have in a while. I found out that Her is the reason I do what I do!! :)

Please leave comments, or whatever... May God bless you!!